2004-07-24, 1:44 a.m.
eh.. ill fix this up tomorrow right now i just need to get my thoughts down. I can't believe how fuckin smitten I am by you, I hate that you can do this to me so easily. I can't stand it, like fuck I'm tired of wanting what I can't have you know. Tired of torturing myself because im living in a dream world.
I'd just like to be with you.
Hmm anyway so work, haircut, forgot hat, went to bass, went to get tyler, had a shower, got bass and sara, went to subway where some random black lady hit on me, drove to inglewood, went to the show, was deaf after 2 mins of being there, play fought with tyler,
almost threw him into oncoming traffic
flirted all evening with the most beautiful girl I've ever met, then walked away without asking her number. purposely. because fuck i can't take this anymore, and I dont think she could of been more handsy. I felt like a dick for somewhat leading her on that evening, mind you i'm not the type to date someone for play or for something to do. It's just all it seems I've got is girls from my past and I'm just dying to meet someone new or maybe it's my weak excuse for thoughts of you.
hmm
some psycho pulled a 6 inch blade on me in front of tyler.
I have never been more disgusted with myself for allowing tyler to witness something like that.
and yah
saved a little bunny from being run over by well... not running over it.
Went back to cody's some girl made me a crown, drove sara home, went home and felt like crap. but hey c'est la vie mes amis.