2004-10-18, 4:45 a.m.
Theres just so much left unsaid, and you know sometimes we all need closure...but right now I need it more than you could ever know.
and I guess thats why there are these sleepless nights.
Because I haven't even spoken your name to anyone in a while, and today as soon as it rolled off my tongue, I couldn't seem to shake the thought of you, and God. I miss it.
I mean I shouldn't, but I do.
it's hard these days, cuz lately it's me that hurts so bad. Not anyone that shares my bed.
and I guess that's part of why, because there just sharing my bed..
instead of that same song, that same bond, that same beating heart that only existed for me and you. You know where no amount of time you spend will ever be enough when you'll always be craving the taste of them.
I guess i'm just waiting for that again, waiting to be kissed like I used to... way back then.
But it's just I'm too stubborn lately to see that it isn't the same love any of you will ever send.
and girl I'd like to say I'm not jaded from you but we both know we've said prettier lies, prettier lies with less polished truths.
and I'm hoping you can read these thoughts straight off my face, because even if feelings fade, when I'm with you is really the only time I ever feel safe.
and what gets me the most is we never really got to try you know?
got to see how things would of turned out.
because you said all that added up was our incompatibilities.
and oh man, I just don't know what to do cuz I know there'll always be other girls...
But I guess it's that every girl seems like just another girl when I compare them to you.